Remiss

I haven't felt this way

Whenever idk

Empty and pained

Blacking my avi for protest

Confessions unheard

I ache all day

I never want to love another again

I had just learned to love again

Tears of love, anger, pain, and confusion fist fighting to their escape

A dissolute inbox holds no weight when I once spoke the language to your heart

I want to leave my messages in your palms & your hearts beatbox

cellular airwaves are no place for the desired face to face

I care too much... you already left

Restricted revisitations 

Threats posed

a threat to your control

I let u control the volume to my headphones

only bumping your tune screaming "blood on the leaves"

The blood drips as the bass thumps

Veins exposed 

Chapters closed

Stuck in the novel was my nose

Every read addicts me with its dose

Every "it could be" confuses me with the struggle to compose

Myself

Strange fruit proving I can't hold my liquor

I can't hold my thoughts

My tongue moistening to regurgitate everything

Remiss

Endangering bystanders unable to withstand the ferris wheel's swift turns

"If you love me so much why'd you let me go"-Guilt Trip

Guiltly willingly stuck

Negligent starvations and selfish gains

You loved me so much you had to let me go

You have to let me go