Departure

departure... exits are in order... preparation prolonged... unspoken emotions and choked silence soon to fall from teary expressions.

space... gravity gone... pressure filling and souls still unfulfilled
wait... it can't be boarding time just yet

memories had never flashed so fast
anxiety attack close
choking up with saliva filled mouths
the driest tongue can't deliver more than lip synced "i love you's"
i wanna say so much
my heart and mind are saying it all already
Why can't anyone hear me?
Have I deafened the world with the pain my face wears
I'm sobbing internally; rapidly gassing my pain into abrupt inflictions... Imprisoned in hurt
I thought I was ready for this

I was ready
I brushed off the idea of you leaving
After all we have left each other for some time
Still with that absence you have been all I know
I know you know that we know the need we have for each other
Right? Baby... WAIT!

boxed in and encompassed
blanketed up in indigent junctures... these moments to be semi permanent for 365 days
a daze
in a daze glancing into the future of my days
baby don't go
stay!!!
service me, for your country will understand
we are repaying our indebted balances
we owe not!
i'm praying the bus turns the key
shuts the engine off...
you return here, in between my arms; my palms filled with your physique... if even for a mere five minutes

tears roll on
passing down arched bones
from faces to shoulders
cheeks wet
sunglasses splashed
Tshirts stained
Sweats stifled
Earth changing around me
I'm in a cocoon of crying astonishment
aches portrayed as the tears roll on
this memory train is rolling

Choo Choo

halt... i think i forgot my boarding pass
i want to forget my boarding pass to this day
i want to ease this day
i want this deployment to be an evil april fools joke
however... ... its June
April fools has long passed but I want to say haha... I want to chuckle my pain away... I want to...

the bus rolls on
i start my engine
racing to match my hearts pace
Racing
racing to catch a final glimpse
I race riding along
i ride along and catch up
i steal my final look at you through the bus' tinted windows
"SMS sent" baby I'm going to miss you
I steady the speed of my car hoping you see it in time to wave goodbye one last time

departure... exits are in order... preparation prolonged... unspoken emotions and choked silence are falling through teary expressions.

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