Resolutions...

Where will the sun dance when the rays no longer drip from your skin

Where will the shadows hide when I’m no longer dazzled by your sinister grins

The tides lost control when our waves crashed brazen to the sand pounding with destruction

Figments drowned as this artist recreated the way you left behind only questions

It had been weeks as I mapped plans to conquer the demolition 

Unbeknownst I hid afraid that vision boards would explode and scatter my secrets 

The new year clock prepped its reparation

Declaring 2017 the year of release and 2018 the year of reclamation. 

Woman Crush Wednesday

I’m caught up

Whose imagination could craft your excellence

Even in my poetic drives I couldn’t come close

Impulsion drove me to create the introduction 

Your soul gave way and shattered my precautions 

My guard dropped quicker than any sidewalk stumbles

I started planning voyages to engage the chemistry giving thanks to God praising and promising I’m humble 

Old arithmetic said I had to show proof of solving the equation

I’m still asking God why me and am I deserving of your saving

Occasionally I crush but these blushes have been eternal

Remedying your inquisition  not allowing voids to be harmed by missing information

You’re my filler

I’m your ink pen

I’m the perfect script 

Notarizing this moment as ours

My mystery can’t exist in the presence of a goddess

Your name rhymes with every quality position

We earned it

Eradicating malevolence from the forgoing 

I caught the draft of the wind prior to your consolation

I call you woman crush Wednesday every time my heart skips at your call

I call you woman crush everyday because you attain the caliber to make me fall.  

Her Father’s Daughter

Sacrifically I taunt your nerves

Riding the fence between contradiction 

You were taught never to love someone so unapologetic

But it’s the warmth of realism that attracts you to give

My honey was organic with its sweetness 

Your emotions were erratic with my presence

Our hormones were fervent in delighted chemistry

I tore your entire stage down rummaging your hoarded insecurities

I piled up every excuse you used unforgiving of yourself

I became the muse in your daily coffee breaking routines of dodging ball players like me

They say never fall in love with a poet and an athlete

But my stamina outdid microwaves as my stainless steel love plays out witted any damage you brought along this trip

I want you to stumble and trip every time I kiss your lips into exquisite artistry

I’ll write our story a thousand times against your softness with a rage Teflon never prepped for

I’d slam every door to your past as our passionate getaways stow away street harassment because your fineness reminded us that I always secure before I indulge in my prey

Through religion we can outgrow any weed

Mother Nature was the setting of me adoring my verbed noun

You brought life to life

I couldn’t imagine the prisms of our atmosphere shaken as fantasy become true

Melody was your nick name 

You brought music from the pages as you thumped to my bass

My heart bumped with our embrace 

You were the fluid in my veins

I lost count of the days 

I lost sight of the pain

I lost sleep anxiously awake

Waiting

For you to reconcile

This cold void. 

A Unicorns Prance

Have you ever experienced a shake

It was like a unicorn danced it’s fairytale into your ocean

It was like a common northern delicacy exposed its secrets

Similar to brown sugar I sampled you in my mind like the hotdog stand in Central Park on the perfect summer day

You were receptive

You spoke with your hands but I heard every verbiage before it escaped your lips 

Your mind bore a power I had never acquainted with

My shyness you embraced and rode your pony ride into my submission

You’re always at the wheel until the yield sign of my stature takes place

Drunken off of the taste of purity you relinquished your keys to my control

Never had a rockland county woman achieved my curious friendship 

Without the shackles of condemning a connection

Aurora

Proximity couldn’t have held closeness anymore than distant virtuality 

Your charm fluttered with your eyelashes 

Your tattoos outlined your brevity

Your smile bore passion

Your lips spoke experience

Yet you haven’t tasted the wisdom amongst my canal

Passageways opened shut doors

Floored by your conversation I surpassed sexual tensions 

There wasn’t a moment I’d let the strings outplay the rest of our orchestra 

It was all you with bamboo gold rocking your maturity married to ethnicity

Your past was frivolous to a soldier on a voyage 

Coyly bold I remembered everything you uttered

I blushed as the lights flickered 

The ambience outlined the stone figures broken among changing hues

I fought my might not to take the first train smoking

I swear I’d inhale your every insecurity

Exhaling the prisms to broaden your security. 

A Side Order

It hurts with you. 
Letting go of expectations. 
Being the side. 
Never knowing. 
Dealing with your silence and resilience. 
I get minimal. 
Always short changed and living through you cutting corners with me. 
Expected to be patient while being your convenience. 
You say you told me but things changed. 
Hiding in the shadows of sometimey communication. 
When you’re with her I’m void to avoid your arguments. 
What about the fight in my heart. 
Love stings with you. 
You're a family with her while ours is dissected and kept behind closed doors. 
You’re a visitor in our empty columns. 
I kept calling and you stopped responding.
Your sultry smooth nature vanished.
I was front row seat to the mood swings. 
Expected to navigate your silence. 
Loving the lust until feelings received defecation. 
Your lease is up and renewal awaits. 
Your family ventures say you’ll probably resign and I’ll be educated of the next date. 

Release

There isn’t a right or wrong way to face sorrow

To drive away the zombies in the closet

To defeat the enemy of inner conflict 

To find a breath in the choking smoke of hurt and confusion

There is no right or wrong way to celebrate

Being freed from the shackles of internal squabbles 

Being freed from poisonous relationships

To understand authentic companionship doesn’t equate to constant suffering

To be consistent in relinquishing and welcoming true self worth

I call this season “Release”. 

In The Darkest Hours

I watched the moon tonight

Observing in astonishment

Amazed at its resemblance

Showing proof of its existence in the dark

Full of craters 

Demonstrating its imperfections 

Imagining the many species marking it with their footprints

Enjoying its ability

To light our sky in our darkest moments

When the shadows of doubt creep in

Self pep talks drown amongst closed ears

Food for thought speeches became an annoyance

Unable to coach myself out of gloom

You forgivingly found a way to master

Keeping the motivator afloat 

In my queendom of disaster

I called out to the moon tonight

With a spirit of welcoming

Remembering that light always attracts

Winging it through life distantly detached 

Subtracting the leeches without traps

Blessed with your constant applause of claps

I watched the moon tonight

Observing in astonishment

Praying for you when demons prey upon you

Recognizing your beauty and diligent insolence

Understanding you were an astronauts dream

Yet, you were my saving when even religion couldn’t save me

Queen you are the moon.